So yesterday I did a little experiment and covered all the clocks in the house so I wouldn’t be constantly aware of what time it was. Have you ever tried something like this before? It’s quite interesting, the time crawls by (mostly because I was also not allowing myself to surf the internet), and I assume it’s later than it actually is. It kind of throws you for a loop, and I realize how much I actually glance at the clock throughout the day. It definitely forces you to slow down too, because you’re not held captive to the clock. I think everyone should give it a shot, just to see how it affects us – and how our habits can actually control us in many ways. Why not try it – if not time, then why not any other habit (like surfing the net, wearing a certain piece of clothing, doing something at a certain time) and see how that changes things for you? I think forcing ourselves out of these habits for a day really makes us more aware of them, and whether or not we want them in our lives. (I actually quite like not knowing exactly what time it is :))

Of course more to come along soon-ish-ish. :)

so long sweet summer
i stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
so long sweet slumber
i fell into you, now you’re gracefully falling away

hey thanks, thanks for that summer
it’s cold where you’re going
i hope that your hearts always warm

Summer doesn’t really leave us here, but it’s a fitting image for the change of seasons.

Just one that I wanted to post :)

Time for another random thoughts, something I haven’t done in a while :)

re: breakfast.
The image above was from breakfast this morning, vanilla yogurt, apple cinnamon granola & frozen blackberries (I didn’t have any fresh ones on hand). It was all so lovely that I had to take a picture :) And yummy! :D This coupled with watching old school Tom & Jerry reruns (they don’t make cartoons like that anymore!) was wonderful. :)

re: autumn.
I’ve said it before, but I’m jealous of those who have an autumn season, as we don’t down here in San Diego. I miss trees that change color and leaves and the sound of them crunching as you walk and browns and oranges and reds and greens mixed together, along with the coats(!!) and scarves and mittens and boots. Yes, I love all those things :)

re: pandora.
Is a Godsend. I heard about Pandora when it first came out in 2005, but back then it wasn’t as big as it is now, so it wasn’t as appealing. But It’s amazing – you just type in any artist or song and it plays similar music based on tone, instruments and vocals. I love radio stations cause you don’t know what they’re going to play next. But sometimes the music doesn’t fit the mood, so I love this – it’s all the same type of music, yet you still get the lovely surprise and discover amazing new music :) My favorite station is my Joshua Radin station of course….

re: “eyes” – rogue wave
…. which brought light to this song, which, when I heard it, was entirely perfect in every way. I was out on a walk, and it was like a soundtrack to the perfect reflecting moment. Cheesy? Yes. True? Yes.

re: the head and the heart.
I think often we confuse the head with the heart. When we say I, who is really speaking? The “I” that thinks logically, plans, thinks about others, thinks about outcomes, the whole picture, solutions? When someone asks you what you want, what do you say? Often our answers may be safe, they may be logical and of the planning type. Who is saying those things? Who is that “I” coming from the “I want?” Is it your head?…. Or is it your heart? Recently I’ve found that too much have I been in my head – planning, thinking about the future, the big picture, focusing on other’s needs, or needs that I *think* I need. I really haven’t stopped and asked my heart anything. There’s a difference in answer… it may be silly, illogical, in the moment, but it feels right. It’s that gut feeling. I haven’t been trusting it because my head took over and for too long my heart has been silent in its wishes. And a part of me has suffered from it and I nelgected myself. But slowly and surely, I’m listening to my heart more than my head, and allowing myself to trust my gut, trust my heart.

For the first time in a long time do I see myself, and see my voice come alive, instead of hiding behind fears and doubts. Don’t forget that a large part of your “I” is your heart, and to listen to that voice, because many times it’s right.